Tuesday, May 30, 2006
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will you marry me? haha..
death. sumting tat hepens thru God's will. lives will forever be changed, be it for the better or worse.
10 yrs ago, all of us were juz starting our tweenager lives. the beginning of sec sch lives, friends, enemies, the "in" crowd, the nerds, ppl trying to fit in, those teenage crushes, BGR.. in the midst of all these, the 1st tragedy struck. one of my claasmate, ahmad yamani, died. he drowned at pulau ubin. as the years passed by during our sec sch lives, we've forgotten abt the tragedy & moved on wit our lives. took our O's back in 1999 & til then, we parted ways.
now in our early adulthood, tryin' to start another new life. 6 yrs hv passed since we last saw one another. as classmates. as frenz. then another tragedy stuck. another one of my classmate, achmad shariff, passed away. din survive the bike accident. his gf is currently warded in ICU. went to his funeral wake yesterday afternoon. the atmosphere was sombre. saw sum of my classmates deR. i wasn't too emo at first, but wen i saw his wrapped-up body being transferred into the coffin, i broke down. i couldn't believe tat itz achmad in deR, sumone whom i noe, sumone who used to sit beside me in class, sumone who went to the thailand trip wit us.. so young.. but yet, he's gone..
Ya Allah, aku sedekahkan Al-Fatihah kpd Allahyarham Achmad bin Mohd. Shariff. Semoga Tuhan menrahmati pemergianmu & semoga engkau tergolong dlm org2 yg beriman. Amin.
i need you right now..
5/30/2006 01:50:00 PM
5/30/2006 01:50:00 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
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will you marry me? haha..
tis goes out to u.
the sad expression on the gal's face = me.
i miss u terribly. pls come home.
i need you right now..
5/25/2006 11:51:00 PM
5/25/2006 11:51:00 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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will you marry me? haha..
helloOoOo deR, earthlings.. been quite a while since i last updated. wazzup wit the pix? well.. tatz wat i'm feelin' rite now.. broken.. even my colleagues noticed tat i wasn't my cheery self today. even tho' i had enuf slp last nite, i still woke up wit a headache. bummer.
was on the verge of fallin' aslp on the sofa wen i decided to blog my tots & feelings down. been feelin' lonely these past fews days, & the silence is unbearable. sumtimes i wondeR, am i not gd enuf to be a lover? or at least a person? i noe i'm not the most perfect person on earth.. i tend to make mistakes all the time, tend to do or say things w/o having regards to others or tend to forget simple but yet meaningful gestures.. i'm stuck in a 23-yr-old body but wit a 16-yr-old brain.. sumtimes i do wonder, why others can maintain tat great r'ship til married life whereas me.. well.. i need.. WE need to work hard on it.. i admit, i ain't gettin' any younger. soOner or ltr, i hv to settle down & if i can't be a gd lover, watz deR to be a wife?
wazzup wit me anyways.. i can't "hold" a r'ship properly. now wen things hepen, i dun even noe where to begin.. wat to look for.. honestly speaking, i havn't been reviewing myself for a long time. i need a personality check i guess. i'm soOoOo messed up. i've become such a burden, a disappointment.. to him.
dear, love doesn't suck. it sucks wen a r'ship doesn't hv any ups & downs. stagnant. love matures wen we progresses from one stage to another, having goin' thru sum tough times. communication, patience, tolerance, trust.. all those.. are stages tat we need to work hard on. if i say love suck, i shldn't be feelin' like tis.. i'll be jumping ard & not caring for anyone or anyting. BUT i'm constantly thinkin' of u rite now, wondering & worrying over u..
i'm so miserable. sad.
i need you right now..
5/23/2006 11:45:00 PM
5/23/2006 11:45:00 PM
Sunday, May 14, 2006
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will you marry me? haha..
sumtimes i wonder why i'm even born into tis world.. juz to create problems & mess into ppl's lives..
i only ate the rojak wic he bought for me. refused to eat anyting else. not even yot's nasi lemak.
depressed.
embarassed.
angry.
sad.
all in one.
til my life's back in one piece.
i need you right now..
5/14/2006 09:08:00 PM
5/14/2006 09:08:00 PM
Monday, May 08, 2006
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will you marry me? haha..
the office is freezing. as always.
i smell gd today. sprayed my whole body with Oceanus before goin' to work. Boo has been telling me tat i smell bad. and taste bad too. bahhh.
i'm soOoOoOo out of pix to post. wait til 3rd june.. *winks*.. paparazzi once again.. haaa..
sat nite was spent watching the GE Results at Boo's hse. he fell aslp halfway. i was fiddling wit my almost senget tudung. PAP won for amk. nee soon central too. heh. now can ask PAP, to "upgrade" the benefits of contract workers or if else fails, i'll hv to start hunting for permanent jobs. wic i'm already doin' rite now. sunday was spent goin' to his cozin's hse for the cozin's engagement. his aunts were deR. paiseh.
his mum - "aini sok pegi raudhah nye tunang?"
me - "huh? raudhah sape?"
always bluR.
i wanna watch MI3. The DaVinci Code. X-Men 3. and lotsa shoppingggggggggg..
i love me.. heh.
i need you right now..
5/08/2006 01:48:00 PM
5/08/2006 01:48:00 PM
