will you marry me? haha..
arghhhhhh!!! had a nitemare last nite! again! tis tm, itz FREDDY KRUEGER chasing me ard the hse! watz wrong wit me?? am i losing my mind?? i washed my feet, my face, said the prayers. slept wit a smile on my face.. & woke up aft having a nitemare??? i nd to see a psychiatrist. period.
on the other hand.. sumone is definitely playg a cat & mouse game wit me. saw sumone on msn last friday nite. he chatted wit me. said sorry for nt contactg me for the past mth as he was involved in an accident. was hospitalised for a mth. okkk.. apology accepted. den.. he went on & on tellg me how much he misses me, how much he likes me, admire me.. bla3x.. i'm the type of gal who doesn't take tis kind of "compliment" tat well. u wanna do it, pls tell it to my face & nt thru msn. hmm.. ok.. sure.. he kept on TYPING those words but hell, he ain't doing anything to prove it!!! i'm nt sayg tat i like him or anyting but.. i nd to see & feel sumting b4 i can reciprocate his feelgs rite?? it seems tat i'm alwayz the one msg-ing/callg him or askg him out. i msged him yesterday.. whether he wants me to come & visit him.. he didn't reply. msged him again tis afternoon.. askg him abt the accident.. he didn't reply. wen was the last time we talked on the phone?? wen i was in KL.
itu pon aku yg call dia dulu! is tis how he's treatg me.. the gal whom he self-proclaimed as "misses, likes & admire"?? sumtimes.. i do wonder wat is going on in his mind. is he having a concussion? haa.. i'm totally confused! really! do i like him? do i? no?? yes?? wic izzit.. onli smarties hv the answer... ehhhh.. wrong.. onli God knows the answer..
i need you right now..
3/27/2005 11:18:00 PM
Saturday, March 26, 2005
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will you marry me? haha..
hi hi.. hmm.. i'm back again.. after almost 2 wks of going missing. howz my wkend? quite.. laughable. hee..
Thursday (24/03/05)
went to watch Ms Congeniality 2 wit Mas at GV marina square. the plc is being renovated & wat i can tell u is.. after renovations been done in the future, the plc's gonna be a bomb! another hang-out plc for me. :)~ me & Mas watchg a movie? together? haa.. tat rarely hepens.. but i juz nd to watch sumting funny as i've been quite stress at wk. hell.. i've nt been taking any leave since my KL trip! left 12 days til my contract ends in october.
Saturday (26/03/05)
skipped my Pergas & went lepak-ing wit Mas & Zana at Starbucks TM. as usual, the Pink Lady has lots of stories to tell. wanna noe? juz click on MasMerah's blog.. haa.. hung out til 7pm & went drivg after tat. got lost at sengkang & spent 15 mins going round & round tryg to get out from deR. haa.. dumb me. i hate the north side. ain't hepening. oOoOo yea.. shall update more.. sumting's up..
i need you right now..
3/26/2005 11:03:00 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2005
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will you marry me? haha..
*srottt*.. the lontong goreng which i juz ate.. wow.. powerrr.. spicy. went to the halal food exhibition at expo last nite wit my mum & bought lots of food. mostly dried food. hee.. i juz lurvvv food. but, make sure tat i don't grow fat. hee.. talking abt food, i'm suddenly craving for laksa. the laksa at the stall behind bugis junction.. yummy..
well.. back to the main topic. thoughts of my old-timer frenz suddenly came into my mind. u noe.. those Damai peepz of mine. i wonder wat they're doing rite now. i hv this feeling of wanting to msg each & every one of them & ask them out for.. coffee.. or sumting. itz been a while since i last met them. i doubt tat they're actually thinkg of me.. hah. anna, hakimah, azhar, syafiq, shukor, rahimi.. these are sum of the closest peepz to me. but.. everyone has been bz wit their own lives. i can understand tat. i wonder.. will we still remember each other, say.. 5 - 10 yrs down the rd? i hv to say.. secondary sch life has been one of the best times in my life. young, ignorant, parentz still giving us money.. haa.. Damai peepz, if u're reading tis.. lemme tell u one thing.. i miss u guyz!! even though i noe u don't miss me. letz meet up one day aite. yohoho~
i need you right now..
3/19/2005 12:02:00 PM
Thursday, March 10, 2005
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will you marry me? haha..
Guy 1st sms - "De way u behave is rubbish.I force myself 2 kol u 2day 2 listen 2 ur rubbish.Its a small matter ok."
Guy 2nd sms - "& u r not fit 2 wear dat tudung.Take it off & enjoy urself.I swear by de name of god dat wat i said is truth ok."
ooo.. i'm scared. i'm really, really.. SCARED. puih. are u trying to threaten me? hah. face it, MAT.. u can't handle rejection. u're confused & embarassed & putting all the blame on me. wat the hell did i do? i was only trying to cool off the situation but u didn't take it nicely. u've only known me less than a wk & u're trying to speed things up. u made all kinds of accusations.. but.. do u really know me?? haha.. itz so sad to see guyz ur age.. 25 i might say, behaving this way. u guyz r supposed to think maturely & rationally.. but it seems tat all guyz think alike. no difference. thinking back.. i'm juz happy to brush u off. u don't seem like the kind of guy who can get along wit me anyways. juz to let u know, not all galz, esp those tudungsters, behave the same. u want a demure, innocent, soft-spoken, lady-ish kind of gal.. tat ain't me. u can't accept my behaviour, my attitude, my hyper-ness.. u're most welcome to get the hell away from me. shall i label u as a BOY? haa.. grow up.
i need you right now..
3/10/2005 12:54:00 AM
Saturday, March 05, 2005
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will you marry me? haha..
Guy - "Eh, asal u bual kasar ni?"
Me - "Bual kasar? Bile mase? This is not kasar. I'm juz hyper. I've heard galz talking more kasar than this. "
Guy - "Try ar bual lembut skit."
Me - "How lembut u want me to talk? I'm juz a hyper-talker. Asal? Ade masalah kape?"
Guy - "Arr.. no komen."
the above convo took plc ard 8.20pm juz now. was i tat kasar to him?? i mean, thruout my whole life, i've been talkg in tat kind of tone. watz his prob? we haven't even met.. he called me 3 times today & wat.. kasar?? hello.. excuse me.. i'm not the minah2 lembik whom i guess u've been searchg for all ur life. u don't even noe me. try getting to noe me & i'll bet, in one mth's time.. u won't bother to call me again. hah. been der, done tat.
backdate - u were practically screaming over the phone the first tm u called. isn't tat kasar too? i had to plc my hp away from my ear. bugger. insisted on meetg me today.. but he had to go sumwhere at the very last min. thank god.
sumtimes, i do wonder.. wat do guyz look/want in a gal, besides sex? are they lookg for those girlie types, those who whine, those who cling onto their arms 24/7, those american version of "the dumb-blonde cheerleader" types? i guess so.. seen it happening in front of my eyes. well.. don't blame us galz if we go after tall, dark/fair, handsome guyz. plus point: owns a bike or car. u guyz started it first by being materialistic. hah. i noe itz not a strong point to argue heRRe. but den again.. i nd a plc to rant. peace.
i need you right now..
3/05/2005 12:52:00 AM
