Tuesday, September 21, 2004
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will you marry me? haha..
wat the hell is happening between me & naz? we fought last sunday outside somerset mrt stn. like i said, we didn't even look like a couple when going out. so obviously, i couldn't expect any sweet surprises from him. we fought, he raised his voice, i fought back, he fought back again, i cried, he hugged me, i cried, he went away from me.. and fought again. he already sensed tat we can't stay long as a couple.. then why drag the r'ship? might as well end it on the spot. the thing tat stopped me from initiating to end the r'ship was when he starting telling me the probs he had at home. i forced him to open up, and he did. more than wat i wanted to hear. i shall not reveal it heRRe but all i can say is.. his is a life full of downs.. way wayyy diff from most of us. he doesn't hv anyone to confide to. he can't confide to me. firstly, i'm an only child.. ignorant to any family probs surrounding me. and secondly, i'm a useless so-called gf. heck. so-called gf? tsk. pathetic. at one point, he even told me tat he's scared to msg me at nite coz he knows i'll drag the conversation. he needs his rest. sure. point taken. my conclusion? find me if he wants me. not vice-versa. i'll juz be laying low for now. but den again, memberz are more important than bf rite? i can go out wit anybody tat i wish to. hey.. i'm still young. 21. why make my life miserable wen i can be happy? fuck others. be urself. peace.
i need you right now..
9/21/2004 10:47:00 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
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will you marry me? haha..
"hey.. hey.. happy bdae
man.. u're 1 yr older. hope tat u've grown wiser. hv fun wit ur frenz alrite..".. tat was wat naz msg me yesterday nite at 10+. yesterday?? it wasn't even my bdae yet! is tat how a so-called bf supposed to msg his so-called gf? i was hoping for at least a bdae call from him. why.. why must he make me cry??? why does his attitude stinks out of a sudden? does he still wanna be in tis r'ship? why isn't he putting any effort in saving it? why does he want me to wait for him til he finishes sch? and wat.. make me suffer all the way? meaning.. i hv to put up wit his crap juz becoz he needs to concentrate on his studies? den why in the first place was he intrested in having a r'ship wit me when eventually he has to "drop" me becoz of his studies? i nvr interfered in his social life or studies.. i don't get it.. WHY??!! why is he doing tis to me??? itz tearing ME & both of us apart.. whenever i msg or call him, he nvr respond. nazrul.. wat did i do wrong? do u still wanna be wit me? if u don't, den itz best we let it out. i nd an answer from u. i can't be kept in the dark all these while.. if i did sumting wrong, plz tell me.. but i don't like the silent treatmt u're giving me & the heck-care attitude tat u're potraying when u're wit me.. i tried to search myself and i noe tat sumtimes, i don't behave like how a gf shld be when i'm wit u.. but the fact is..
I STILL LUV U.. plz don't do tis to me.. many times i try not to think abt it, but i can't. everywhere i go, i kept thinking abt the fun times we had. i bet u didn't noe that i cried at sentosa last 2 sundays.. u do remember palawan beach rite? watching the sunset together.. taking the monorail rides. under my blk, tatz the first tm u kissed me on the cheeks. watching our fav movies at PS. tanjong katong complex, our first fight.. u hugged & comforted me. haig rd S-11.. had our break fast deR during Ramadan.. arghhh!!! sumone help me plzzzz!!!
i need you right now..
9/12/2004 10:29:00 PM
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
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will you marry me? haha..
*burppp*.. tadi tm lunch, aku dgn kak wati pi sheng siong (spelling btol keR?) pat blakg beli roti dgn sardin/tuna. niat hati masing2 nk pi delifranc, tapi budget dan jauh nye pasal.. yg murah pon jadilah.sorilah dah lama tk update. meh.. read on..
Saturday (04/09/2004)
once again, aku cabot class sirah aku kerna nk attend si hafiz jengo nye bdae bbq pat ECP. jahat sakkk.. org nk tambahkan pahala, aku buat dosa. haha.. janji zul ard 5 pat ubi bus-stop and took 55 to marine parade. since dua2 dah kelaparan, kite pi mkn pat hawker ctr ni. ade lah satu makcik ni boal2 dgn kite. ade ke patot dia ingat aku 12 tahon??? mude sgt keR aku ni? ni dah kes melampau. tkpeR.. makcik nye pasal, aku let go. dah sampe beach, kite dua lepak pat water breaker japz. aku ade ingat area F pit 57 tu dkt. rupe2nyeR.. tipah tertipu aR. took us almost 50 mins to WALK from the water breaker to deR. imagine betape peritnye nk jln. his pit is near the bedok jetty, one of the famous haunted places in singapore. met hafiz's 3rd yr classmates, aku boal2 dgn drg. lagi2 si minah indon tu, dewi & shinta. suke aR dgr drg boal indon. mcm cute. ard 8.30, zana & mas came. dah mkn2, aku terase lak nk kenc. pi toilet dgn zul. and.. the UNEXPECTED happened.. HP AKU JATO PAT DLM JAMBAN. menyumpah seribu mcm perkataan sakkk.. gone sakkk.. ni skrg tgh kai hp bapak aku, yg aku tk reti nk pakai. sialannnnnn..!!! sampe rmh ard 11.15pm. naik cab beb.. spt tgk summer slam. kalo bab wrestling, aku tkle miss. sanggop tunggu sampe abis baru aku mandi. tapi yg tk bestnyeR, the nx day kene bgn siang coz ade family day pat sentosa organised by singhealth, nhg... blah3x. parentz aku smgt pegi. terpakse aku join.
Sunday (05/09/2004)
woke up ard 5am & left for sentosa at 6.20am. sampe sentosa ard 7am. tk pernah2 sak ni pagi.. mood aku on tat day ade down. coz firstly, HP MASOK JAMBAN. secondly, nazrul doesn't seem to give a damn abt my "hp rendezvouz". msg dia 2 kali, tk jwb sakkk. dulu mase hp dia yg masok jamban, aku ade concern skit. sampe sanggop temankan dia pi siemens care ctr. sanggop kesian tgkkan keadaan dia. abe bile part hp aku lak, habok pon tkde. tk sound any concerns pon. haprak siak. abt the sentosa thingy.. well, aft PM datang, kite start jln from the carpark to palawan beach. ingatkan bape pe jauh eh.. dah sampe, lepak2 pat beach ntah buat peR. aku asik melentok sane sini mcm minah drug. nantoz aR. spt naik monorail & cable car. penat nye pasal, pat monorail pon spt tido. ard 2+ sampe rmh. pastu bom..
tu lah kisahnye during the wkends. quite boring i might say.. haha..
i need you right now..
9/07/2004 05:32:00 PM
