will you marry me? haha..
hai.. i'm back. tgh lunch hr ni.. boring2 nye pasal aku masok aR. well.. yesterday went out wit naz to watch king arthur. as usual, i was 20 mins late. ape nk buat, bapak suh aku kemas bilik sblom kuar. jumpe dia jek, mood aku down. instead of putting on a happy face, dia "sengih" and step sarcastic dgn aku. konon nk cool aR gitok. pat dlm wayang, satu2 dok mcm bdk baik. aku ade mengharap dia pelok aku ke apeR since tpt tu sejok, but nothing. but he did held my hand at one time. aft movie, pi mkn pat BK. pat situlah start kite nye gado. ade keR dia nk salahkan aku for not understanding him? i tried my best to understand him & get myself acqquainted wit his schedule. but wat can i do if i can't make things better?
dia ckp he wants a simple r'ship. yesss.. tat i can gv him.
he doesn't want frequent calls or msgs from me, tu sume aku bole buat. dah mmg buat dari dulu pon.
he's sacrificing his tm for me whenever we meet. dia dah tkde moto, so terpakse balik siang. aku tk tau aR, tapi semenjak tgk Troy.. i felt tat something's diff between us. but in the end, aft standing for like.. 30 mins pat platform yishun mrt, we settled our stuffs. aku kasi dia "attack" aku dulu sblom aku "attack" dia. in other words, kasi dia berbuih dulu aR. but in the end.. settled. herkk.. cut short aR story. tkkan nk menjela pat sini lak.
i juz received news from ashary tat one of my.. how shall i say it.. last-tm internet fren passed away. passed away during ns training. tk tau ape story aR. nanti balik aku cek ppr. his name is nizam danial, used to be from sp decc tapi grad half-way. zaman2 kite 1st dgn 2nd yr, kite slalu chat pat irc. yg klakarnyeR, sampe aku grad dia tk pernah recognise muke aku.. but i recognised him. juz a few mths ago, aku tegur dia pat kedai pakcik dia pat geylang. slalu tm puasa aku mesti npk dia. sad isn't it.. when u think tat the ppl u know has gone.. mcm last yr.. aku baru balik sch. den suddenly mak aku ckp makcik-angkat aku dah meninggal. tk anjat aku. dulu.. family kite ok cept kebelakangan ni, ade hal. everytm raya, dia mesti suh aku ajak kwn2 aku pi visit. tk terbuat2 aku.. haizz.. dah.. tkmo pk2 aR. sedih sak.
i need you right now..
7/19/2004 01:21:00 PM
will you marry me? haha..
oiii!!! ape ni? aku tkle masok both hanot's & syidot's blog!!! bingitnyeRRR!!! hmm.. juz updating weekly stuffs that has happened this wk. not much though.. cept for more manual ppr wk.. alahai.. aku tgk kertas2 tu sume, mcm nk bakar. nk cerai pon ppr belambak. chettt.
tadi ptg aku turun baybeats dgn rad & norana. met up wit fareeq, khai & lutfi there. baybeats tu ape? slenge kan tk tau. itz a 3-day gig event organised by this local gig production company. lepas keje teros pi pergas. den tukar baju turun gig. aku tunggu rad nk dkt satu jam batang idong dia tkde. aku baru nk angz kaki nk jln skali npk rad muke cuak tgh naik escalator. ape lagik.. aku soot same dia. rupe2nye, dia dgn norana kene "tahan" pat kallang stadium. drg kene tolong2 wit the NDP stuffs deR. lepas magrib, bought food from BK and head down towards Esplanade. aku sampe jek.. fooohhh.. fav band aku perform lah. atually.. this band performed at last yr's baybeats.. poweRRR siolll... Buddhistson. itz a japanese rock band. nasib drg nyanyi in english. paham jugak org2 yg datang tgk. they performed 5 songs.. tk pernah2 aku pi gig diri pat barricade. ni tanda2 dah smgt balik nk pi future gigs. haha.. aft tat, watched force vomit perform. aku dgn rad spt amik pix wit the Buddhistson's drummer. he's a cool guy wit blonde dreadlocks. name's marcy. he was thanking us for coming down to see them. aku ckp balik drg perform poweR. haha. pastu pi pat merchandise stall nk survey2 their cd. mak dokkk!!! $23 sak. mahalll.. but, undergnd bands nye cd slalu mahal aR. tgk aR lepas gaji aku try beli. by 10.45pm, i made a move. dah nantoz aR. kuar dari pagi siol. anw, looking forward for nx yr's baybeats. :)~
*yawnz*.. aisehhh.. sok tgh hari nk tgk king arthur dgn naz. hmm.. ade can lepas wayang, gado. haha. nitez.
i need you right now..
7/18/2004 03:11:00 AM
will you marry me? haha..
*cough*.. *cough*.. been coughing the whole day. sial btol.. nk beboal pon susah. bual skit jek, batok. haiyah..
nari tk byk story aR. tadi ptg turun sim lim dgn parentz aku beli monitor dgn speaker baru. woo hoo!!! finally, monitor aku dah jahanam.. (alhamdulillah!) so pestered my parentz to buy a new one. wat did i get? a 15" samsung lcd monitor & speakers wit subwoofer.. cebahhh!!! finally.. impianku tercapai. tapi.. monitor terpakse korek duit aku sendri. mahal siakkk! tapi tk pasal. end of the mth, parentz aku byr half. kite share2 aR. actually, aku nk increase the hard drive size to 40GB and prob the memory (256MB, cukup keR?), tapi.. sayang duit aR. nanti satu hari aku suh mak aku call org tu suh check & "revamp" comp aku ni. *cough*.. pakcik pat kedai sim lim ckp DIY cpu is much better than those branded ones. baru aku tauuu.. haiyahhh.. how i wish i noe these computer stuffs. pat sch bknnye blaja sgt. stakat blaja PCT time yr 3. itupon tk exposed sgt. bukak cpu, cabot2 pci & sci cards, cocok2 wire & install drives. herkk..
supposed to hv a gathering tadi ptg, but since hujan.. terpakse cancel. rad, zul, timah pi SO7 concert pat downtown east. abe drg nk meet up dgn kite2. huhu.. lain kali aR geng. tunggu gaji aku nx mth baru bole meet. haha.. k aR, aku nk pi tido. i hate mondays!!!
i need you right now..
7/12/2004 12:38:00 AM
will you marry me? haha..
hmm.. skrg tgh lunch. satu opis mkn free. dgr2 one of the interpreters naik pangkat, so dia blanja all of us. haha.. save duit aku. aku tgh kenyang gileR ni.. jgn nk berak suaR. malas nk berak time keje ni. leceh.
hehe.. nari si brother polis tu ade! yay! dah 2 hari tk npk dia pat pintu. maklumlah, last wednesday aku MC. sakittt.. den smlm he wasn't on duty. kpd sesape tk tau story, tkya tau lah. datang tpt keje aku tgk sendri. haha.. wat happened tis wk? tk byk aR. last monday, aku meet up dgn naz pat tg pagar pi amik gaji aku from my agent. pastu kite pi mkn pat lau pa sat. as usual, we didn't talk much. aku pon dah tk tau ape nk bual pat dia. itz like, he changed. dah tkde manje2 between us. nk story2 pat dia pon, mesti ade reason. no reason, no story. dulu aku suke naa cocok2 pinggang dia. he'll get ticklish. but now, bile aku try cocok, kene tegur lak. bile aku msg, most of my messages weren't responded. bile aku tanye certain Q, he'll ask nape aku byk songeh.bile aku ajak jumpa, he'll ask me why. aku suspect ade yg tk kene, but wat izzit? is he two-timing me? betol ke org kate when the honeymoon period is over, the partner will start showing its ugly head? kadang2 sampe naik bingit aku pk sal hal ni. nk suh aku spy pat dia? byk masa aku. tkkan asik nk call dia, check mane dia pi. kang kene label queen control. aRgghh!!! tk tau aR. ape nk jadi, jadi aR. yg penting, aku innocent dlm hal ni. aku tk buat pe2. pegi keje, balik keje, mkn, rest, tido.
i juz wish tat i'll noe the answer one day. be it by mouth, seen by my eyes or watsoever means necessary.. as long as i noe watz been going on. i don't wanna be a gf juz by name. i really wanna be deR when he needs me. but it ain't gonna be possible when he doesn't open up to me.
i need you right now..
7/09/2004 01:30:00 PM
will you marry me? haha..
wahhh.. smlm penat satu hari aku kuar. midnite baru balik. nasib spt tgk Bad Blood. haha.. wrestling nye pasal, aku tkkan miss.
aft work, supposed to meet zana & rad at outram mrt nk pi escape. maklumlah, zana nye bdae smlm. skali, naz call mati2 nk meet aku. stuck between memberz dgn matair, pikiran aku japz. tapi, since dia nk meet aku kejap jek, he didn't mind being in the same train wit my frenz. aku tunggu dia pat outram mrt, and at the same time, hati tgh berdebar2.. ape tu jantan nk dgn aku. dah sebln lebih tk jumpa, alih2 nk meet up. he sounded very persistant on the fone. aku ade pk.. "dekni nk break up dgn aku keR?". 2.30pm, dia dah sampe. anjat berok aku npk dia. rambot dia dah tukar colour. aku plg bingit kalo matair dye rambot. dah mcm mat2 last cabin. tis the second time he dyed his hair. pulak tu, cara dia beboal pon mcm nk step abg2. besides tat.. we did touch on our personal stuffs. ntah lah.. i dunno where we're going. seems tat kite dah tk mcm dulu. can only pray tat things will turn out ok between us. *sigh*..
zana & rad sampe 15 mins later and we all boarded the train to pasir ris. i'm supposed to meet mas. zana & rad dah pi escape dulu wit the guyz. tgh tunggu mas, aku dgn naz dok mkn. blah 3x.. kol 4pm, dia blah and me & mas pi jumpe drg pat escape. gerek jugak pat sane, cume the rides tk byk. naik viking dia pon tk tinggi. den aft spending the aftnoon deR, went down to tamp tgk spiderman 2. overall, the movie's ok.. cume the 1st hr ade byk beboal. last2 part, ade touching skit. si rad bole nangis ni. kekek.. fareeq send us hm aft the movie. dia dgn si gelek drive.. mak ai.. mcm nk racing. asal bole tukar lane. aku lagik lupe nk kai seatbelt. perangai..
hmm.. tatz for today. japz lagi aku nk outz jumpe mummy ku.. haha..
i need you right now..
7/04/2004 02:37:00 PM
will you marry me? haha..
haiyah.. aku lupa nari friday. keke.. actually now having my lunch at the opis. itz been a wk since i started working at family & juvenile court.. (bkn sub court geng). so far.. ok aR. kene byk manual ppr wk, filing and stuffs. aku contract sampe end of october. aku lebih rela naik mrt drpd naik nel. now i noe why nel org byk complain. slowww...
hmm.. wat else? smlm aku call naz. AKU yg call, bkn dia k. ingatkan tkmo lyn pat fone, rupenyeR.. wahhh.. dia act mcm noting hepened. aku mcm nk "sound" nape dia perangai these past few wks tapi, tkmo story panjang2 dgn dia.. i juz close BOTH eyes. well.. at least dpt dgr suara dia.. sejahat2 aku pon, tetap aku sayang pat dia. ewahhh.. touching. dia blg aku last 2 wks jato moto. ciannn dia.. i noe he's cashless rite now. prob aku dpt gaji tis mth bole tolong dia skit.
i'm trying to recall anyting intresting tis wk.. hmm.. besides me having 3 new kiddies from the kem as my new frenz. ah.. talking abt dem.. 2 of dem, alyasa & chong 14 & 16 yrs respectively, are from my grp. the other one, hadi 18 yrs, is zana's facs partner. among tiga2 ni.. si chong gerek aR. we hit it off during kem. dektu ade skit mcm james. tk reti beboal mandarin. all the way boal mly.
serioz aR.. aku tk tau ape nk tulis. nantoz lagi ade. *yawnz* dah.. aku nk con't mkn. chaloR.
i need you right now..
7/02/2004 01:00:00 PM
